swimmin' with the fishies

after three months...

2005-09-26T14:29:00.000+08:00

My last entry was three months ago. Nothing much has happened since then. My life has been fairly typical of a med student
(social life --> very limited). And just so that I could put something in my blog...I decided to post this song, which really says a lot about how I'm feeling at the moment, emotionally, that is. You see, I've learned to compartmentalize already so this part of me may not be all that giddy, but I'm still generally in a happy, contented state of exhaustion. (",)

MAN ON THE SIDE
By John Mayer

Six numbers, one more to dial
Before I'm before you tonight
I tried to call, been busy all night
Gave up waiting at daylight

Excuse me, Mrs. Busybody
Could you pencil me in when you can?
Though we both know that the worst part about it
Is I would be free when you wanted me
If you wanted me

I am the man on the side
Hoping you'll make up your mind
I am the one who will swallow his pride
Life as the man on the side

One of the many
One of the few
To stand back and wait for you
Excuse me, Mrs. Busybody
Could you pencil me in when you can?
Though we both know that the worst part about it
Is I would be free when you wanted me
If you wanted me
If you wanted me

I am the man on the side
Hoping you'll make up your mind
I am the one who will swallow his pride
Life as the man on the side
Life as the man on the side

I fell in love with the dream that I built of you
Playing the part of the queen
Taking my own advice, I'm giving up tonight
Good luck to you and the king

Excuse me, Mrs. Busybody
Could you pencil me in?
Though we both know that the worst part about it
Is I would be free when you wanted me
If you wanted me
If you wanted me
I am the man on the side
Hoping you'll make up your mind
I am the one who will swallow his pride
Life as the man
You know, life as the man
Living life as the man on the side

Pasensya na, todo drama to haha. But I decided that it's about time I set myself free. This is the last time I'd be doing this (sana...dapat), so please bare with me.

Schedule ng Fete de la Musique

2005-06-05T03:53:00.000+08:00

Dizizit my dear friends! Sana makapunta naman ako this year. Kitakits! :-)

Fete de la Musique 2005 June 18, 2005 Saturday 4pm Onwards El Pueblo, Ortigas Center Sponsored by: Alliance Francaise de Manille Fete de la Musique is now a much-awaited annual international music festival. It started in France in 1982 - an idea of former French Minister of Culture Jack Lang. The objective was pretty simple - to celebrate the upcoming of Summer by inviting musicians, amateurs and professionals, to perform for free in public places like parks, streets, railway stations, museums, and so on. This idea soon became very popular, and thanks to our cultural network of French Embassies, French Cultural Centers and Alliance Franaises, Fte de la Musique is now celebrated in more than 120 different countries. All these musicians playing simultaneously on the same day, in so many different places, certainly makes it the biggest multi-cultural festival in the world. ===================================== Main Stage - World / Reggae / Ska In between Chateau and the former Tequila Joe's Brownbeat All-Stars Butong Pakwan Cynthia Alexander Hemp Republic Indio I Kadangyan Loquy Makiling Ensemble Pinikpikan Sing India Radioactive Sago Project Reggae Mistress SPY ===================================== Outdoor Stage - Rock in front of Rack's Boldstar SPY Boy Elroy Chicosci Ciudad Cog Death by Tampon Dicta License DRT Greyhoundz Happy Meals Hellbender Imago Itchyworms Join the Club Kapatid Kinetic Daze Kinky Hooters Kjwan Monkeyspank Plane Divides the Sky Razorback Rugis Sandwich Shards of Ice Silent Sanctuary Sique Sugarfree Taggu nDios Twisted Halo Typecast Zoom Zoom Lunacy ===================================== Podium - Alternative front driveway Ang Bandang Shirley Barbie's Cradle Bobby Parks Movement Bridge Dale Ibay Dirty Kitchen Hale Isha Kitchie Nadal Mayonnaise Milk 'N Money Mojofly Mush Carnival Olympic Smoker Narda Nityalila Paramita Pinoy Stories Pinwheel Rocksteady Session Road Severo Sheila and the Insects Splitcide Spongecola Stonefree Sundown Muse The Brockas The Late Isabel Up Dharma Down Zarah Smith ===================================== Sidebar - Blues Bluesviminda Daniel Crisologo Band Freeway Jam Huka Mr. Crayon Sammy Asuncion Taglay Sinag The Jerks ===================================== Friends Bar & Resto - Hip-Hop, R&B 7 Shots of Wisdom Haylo Mike Swift Pikaso Sun Valley Crew Turbulence ===================================== Pasto - Electronica Bagetsafonik Chox Daydream Cycle Dayuhan Drip Flipperbaby Ixiz Makkina Moon Fear Moon Morse Names are for Tombstones Neon8 One Lone Clone Rubber Inc Silverfilter Trip M Wolfmann

yehey! I always wanted to be Nightcrawler!

2005-06-03T14:13:00.000+08:00

Ang fun! Favorite ko talaga yung powers ni Nightcrawler, kahit pangit siya, cool naman! :-) I wonder how it's like to have blue, scaly skin...

You scored as Nightcrawler. History
Kurt Wagner, alias Nightcrawler. Son of Mystique; father unknown. [Note: Father in comics was Count Eric Wagner, who died under mysterious circumstances; this has not yet been revealed on the show.] Mutated during infancy, presumably even more than he was at birth, by Magneto. Upon discovering her son's condition, Mystique fled into the woods with Kurt. She was chased by wolves, as well as Magneto, and cornered on a bridge. The baby Kurt fell from her hands into a river, whereupon he floated for a while until a farmer fished him out of the water.

The farmer and his wife treated Kurt like their own son. He lived with them throughout his childhood, never knowing who his real parents were. He performed with a circus for most of his childhood, until his powers began to become more prominent, at which point he travelled to the Xavier Institute.

Profile
Kurt's abilities include teleportation, exceptional agility and acrobatic prowess, and a prehensile tail. He is the least normal-looking of all the X-Men, with a pointed tail, pointed ears (some would say elf-like... or Vulcan-like, depending on how you look at it), three-fingered hands, two-toed feet, and fine blue fur.

Despite his appearance, Kurt is the definitive Mr. Nice Guy - kind, sensitive, jocular, and enthusiastic about almost everything. But underneath this, he's a very vulnerable person, always conscious of his appearance. Though a holographic inducer allows him to blend in with normal teenagers, he's always aware that it could break down at any time. As if that weren't bad enough, the inducer does nothing to hide his physical characteristics, so he always has to take care not to touch anyone, lest they feel his fur or three-fingered hands.

Or his tail. Speaking of which, have you ever wondered where he holds his tail when he's at school, so that he won't hit anyone with it? Draped over his shoulder? Wrapped around his leg? Hmm. Also, have you ever thought about what a pain it would be to have only three fingers? What would it be like for Kurt to, for example, touch-type on a keyboard? Or how about playing the piano - I shudder to think of that one.

Let's now address a somewhat contentious issue - Kurt's age. Most sites will tell you that Kurt is fourteen or fifteen years old. This could be possible, were it not for the fact that he has, on more than one occasion, driven the X-Van (most notably in The Cauldron Part I). This would mean that he must be at least sixteen. "But wait!" I hear you cry. "What if the driving age in New York, the state in which Bayville is located, isn't sixteen?" This page should show you that it is, indeed, sixteen.

Lastly, have you ever wondered why there's a wisp of smoke left behind after Kurt teleports? I looked it up, and it turns out that it's part of the atmosphere from the dimension through which he travels while teleporting.

Nightcrawler

95%

Jean Grey

85%

Storm

80%

Shadowcat

65%

Cyclops

60%

Beast

55%

Professor X

55%

Iceman

55%

Wolverine

45%

Colossus

40%

Banshee

40%

Archangel

30%

Rogue

25%

Which X-Men member are You?
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For Myka

2005-05-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

Myks, dahil wala kang chatterbox, kailangan ko tuloy magsulat dito. Shucks na-depress ako...I got so low sa quiz mo. :( I don't know why. I kept on changing my answers tapos as always, my first guesses were correct. Ang eps! Anyway, I hope this won't ruin our friendship...charing! Nakaka-bother, I felt so confident I would get a good score. Ugh... (haha ang sama talaga ng loob ko...this just shows how much i love you!) I hope to see you soon though, before you leave. mwah!!!

Ang Ilaw at Megaphone ng Buhay Ko =)

2005-05-10T15:38:00.000+08:00

Here's me and my beautiful mommy. Mothers' day is always a special occassion for us, maybe because my mom insists on being the star of the day and we all gladly comply to her wish (dahil one day lang naman hehe). My siblings and I bought her flowers last monday since it would be nice to have flowers to stare at the whole week (tsaka di pa super mahal) and of course, we went shopping! Siyempre yun ang ginawa namin coz it's my mom's favorite activity. Bummer lang coz the Dairy Queen in Shangri-La closed already, she would've enjoyed a free Blizzard from me...tsk, tsk. I hope you and your moms had a wonderful day as well. =)

my getaway for the past three days

2005-04-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

I really just wanted to post this. Wala lang, it's such an nice yet

not-so-sappy telenovela. Thanks Ria! I enjoyed watching it!!! :D

what I've been up to lately

2005-04-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

It has been 2 weeks and a day since I started my first ever real job. Sadly, I have nothing extraordinary to say about it. I guess it somehow is sort of like my life so far- routine with a few perks in between. I’m not complaining though. The pay is not proportional to the workload (syempre I think that I should be getting more) but heck, it beats having no money at all for the summer. I’m just bummed that I have to get up early even if I’m technically on vacation. Baka kaya rin ako nag-med, it’s so that I’ll have an excuse to wake-up late till I’m 25 cause I’ll still be a student by then…hurray for me!

FYI pala, for those who haven’t heard yet, I’m working as a tutor/teacher at a review center near our house. I just decided to get a summer job the same day I applied and got hired, so it was probably meant to be. I didn’t even know how to make a resume, so I surfed the net for self-help guides to making a resume look successful. But I was able to get myself a job in less than 12 hours so I’m pretty proud of myself haha. :)

I just realized though, that keeping the job is 100 times harder than actually getting it. I literally have to drag myself out of bed after the n^th snooze every single day. May countdown na nga ako til my last day, which is just 19 work days away. On my 3^rd day at work, I dreamt of having an office job someplace that resembled the review center and I woke up with a scowl on my face and almost in tears. Ngayon ko lang na-realize na ganon ko pala ka-ayaw mag-work sa office, buti na lang I chose a different path. So now I have a deeper respect for those who do. Sabi ko nga kay EJ, those people who have been working in the same office for the longest time must be really cool people. I mean, they were able to humor themselves through years of paperwork and meetings di ba? Amazing!

Anyway, so that’s what I’ve been doing these past few days aside from my revived addiction to Korean telenovelas (shucks…di ko na-expect na maganda pala talaga ang Lovers in Paris) and my pathetic attempt to keep up with my 2 to 3 books-per-week reading goal. Take note: wala na namang exercise/health plans involved. I’m a slob period. I want to but I can’t, my bed is just too tempting to pass up. Totoo ngang the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.

Last na lang promise, excited na ko for ALMOST FAMOUS 3!!! I miss Ablir’s voice so much. (ahem, kasi di naman ako binibisita pag may pasok…sniff) I hope to see you all there! :)

me as a biomolecule

2005-04-19T21:58:00.000+08:00

I found this at marica's blog. I thought it was interesting. So here's my quiz result, weird pero fun na rin hehe :)

You are mRNA. You're brilliant, full of important,
interesting information and you're a great
friend to the people you care about. You may
have sides to you that no one understands. But
while you understand more than most people,
you're only half-there most of the time.

Which Biological Molecule Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

our puerto galera adventure

2005-04-16T18:48:00.000+08:00

Here are some pics from our 3-day getaway. It was so nice and relaxing. I'll tell you guys all about it asap.

a month

2005-04-16T18:26:00.000+08:00

It is almost a month since that horrible night. I feel like a lot has happened but nothing really changed. The aching feeling I get when I realize that we are never going to see him again or talk to him about silly stuff is still there, waiting for its next chance to creep into my system. It sometimes invades my favorite time of day, when the light is just creeping into our bedroom and I am half-dreaming, half-thinking about my life and what’s it going to be like. I used to love those times when I’ll just stay a little bit longer in bed than my mom would like, and just dream my way into reality. Now, I’m always in a hurry to shake off the memories, and as bok would term it, “slideshows” of the previous night because a fraction of it will always be about him and our good times together. Haaay…at least I’m not the one seeing an empty bed or missing a scent that used to always be there. It must be harder for them, I could just imagine. Anyway, I’ll see him some day. Until then my friend, magpa-practice muna ako mag football dito para may challenge naman for you pag naglaro na tayo diyan tsaka mag-iipon na rin kami ng jokes :) I miss you mervs!

A Black Week

2005-03-22T08:43:00.000+08:00

:-(

Here's a pic of my class...siyempre pa-star lahat :)

2005-01-22T23:06:00.001+08:00

formalin stinks

2005-01-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

In a daze and a half

2005-01-06T01:01:00.000+08:00

So how was my first day of classes? Let me begin…

6:00

ESSIE (my sister): ditche gising na…sabi mo gisingin ka ng maaga…

ME: hmmm? Wait lang…

after 45 minutes…

ME: waah 6:45 na! (7 am ko kasi plano pumasok because of my dad, but obviously, that didn’t happen)

9:00 (in gross anatomy lecture)

PROF/DOC: blah, blah… these veins drain into the sigmoid sinus, into the internal jugular, brachiocephalic and eventually, the superior vena cava… sinuses, meninges, dural spaces… it never ends.

(and then he looked at his watch…)

PROF/DOC: ay tanghali na pala! (finally nahalata na rin niya na kanina pa nag-bell) Sige go to the lab.

ME: Say what!!!! May lab na kagad? (I’m still sleepy. It is just around this time that I wake up from my wonderful sleep to check if my lamp is still on, read a little, and then sleep again. Haaay…those were the days.)

It’s not that I missed the smell of formalin or “manong’s” skinless face, but its kinda nice to go back to the lab and do something productive again until…

PROF/DOC: Dissect the scalp and its layers and remove the skull top to expose the brain. Tuloy pala yung practicals nyo sa neuro later.

ME: Huh? Scalp? Neuro practicals? Huh?!

Ok, medyo sabog na ang lola mo. Pero pa-confident parin para kahit alam nilang di ako nag-aral kebs lang. J

ME: Tara dissect na tayo! (Yihee excited…NOT! Deep inside I’m puking my guts out. It’s been a while since I last smelled and saw a drying, formalin-ized caddy and believe me, it’s not something you would want to get used to.)

Mamaya na yang brainstem, konti lang yan…charing! (It’s part of my pa-confident effect pero hindi nag-work.)

13:30

Nahilo ako sa sobrang daming reflex ng tao. Pero mga classical examples pa lang yon.

Kumbaga latik pa lang sa ibabaw ng suman sa lihiya (hehe nagugutom na kasi ako).

15:05

Lagot practicals na…I can do this woohoooo! (trying to psyche myself up a bit). And then the brain lapse came…

Station #3, structure pointed is obviously the Trigeminal Nerve.

Yehey Trigeminal! Alam ko to saya!

QUESTION: What is the motor nucleus of this structure?

Hmmm…hmmm…hmmm

(after 10 seconds, BEEP!)

Uh-oh…still no answer. There’s nothing in my brain that made sense so I just wrote down: spinal tract of the CN V

Ok eto na ang answer na hinahanap-hanap ng neurons ko: Motor nucleus of the Trigeminal Nerve

Ang EPS!!!

Station #5, structure pointed is clearly the Facial ___ Nucleus (oh no! another brain lapse)

By the way, the missing word was MOTOR. Yeah, a short, easy to remember, fairly

simple word that slipped right through my memory at the time when I needed it the most.

Ayos!

AND MY SCORE ON MY FIRST PRACTICAL QUIZ THIS YEAR….

drum roll please…

a whopping 4/10

VAKHET????!!!!

I can’t believe sleeping and eating too much can actually turn my brain into mush.

whew! it's just a hoax

2005-01-02T20:36:00.000+08:00

I'm glad EJ told me the truth. The Gabriel Garcia Marquez farewell letter entitled "La marioneta" was just a hoax. It was written by a ventriloquist named Johnny Welch. Haay... I should've known better. It definitely wasn't his style. But I was thinking that maybe the letter was so cheezy because it was for his friends and he was dying. It is true that he has cancer... so that's a shame. I guess he would want to make a grander exit from the literary world. It should be, and I would expect no less, a well-written-totally and uniquely-Gabo piece.

Kung sino ka mang Johnny Welch ka...ang eps mo! :D

Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

A cloudy day

2004-12-28T17:48:00.000+08:00

I wouldn’t normally like to start a blog entry on such a sad note but I guess this has to be an exception. I just received this email and it really saddened me to know that one of the greatest writers in the world (and my favorite too!) is going to retire due to an illness. I wonder how that feels like? I guess when you’ve been writing all your life it would be impossible to totally give it up. Maybe he’s just going to give up the nasty parts of publishing a book like the stress of having to come up with one in order to satisfy your readers and then going on tour to promote it. I am comforted to think that he has already reached a level of success that most writers would only dream of and it’s about time he made way for the others. Anyway, his books are all must-reads nowadays and will probably still be in the years to come.

To him who has ignited my passion for reading, I bid you an easy journey to the next stage of your life. May it be fruitful, comfortable and full of life until the end.

Critically acclaimed author Gabriel Garcia
Marquez has retired from public life due to health reasons:

cancer of the lymph nodes.

He has sent a farewell letter to his friends, and
thanks to the Internet it is spreading. I recommend that you read
it. This short text, written by one of the most brilliant Latin
Americans in recent times, is truly moving.

A GENIUS BIDS FAREWELL

If for an instant God were to forget that I am a rag
doll and gifted me with a piece of life,

possibly I wouldn't say all that I think, but
rather I would think of all that I say.

I would value things, not for their worth

but for what they mean. I would sleep little, dream more,
understanding that for each minute we close our
eyes we lose sixty seconds of light.

I would walk when others hold back, I would wake
when others sleep. I would listen when others talk,

and how I would enjoy a good chocolate
ice cream! If God were to give me a piece of life, I
would dress simply, throw myself face first in the sun,

baring not only my body but also my soul.

My God, if I had a heart, I would write my hate on
ice, and wait for the sun to show. Over the stars I
would paint with a Van Gogh, dream a Benedetti poem,

and a Serrat song would be the serenade I'd offer to the moon.

With my tears I would water roses, to feel the pain of their thorns,

and the red kiss of their petals!

My God, if I had a piece of life, I wouldn't let a single day pass
without telling people I love that I love them.

I would convince each woman and each man that they are my favorites,
and I would live in love with love. I would show men how very wrong
they are to think that they cease to be in love when they grow old,
not knowing that they grow old when they cease to be in love!

To a child I shall give wings, but I shall let him learn to fly on his own.

I would teach the old that death does not come with old age, but
with forgetting. So much have I learned from you, oh men!

I have learned that everyone wants to live on the peak of the
mountain, without knowing that real happiness is in how it is scaled.
I have learned that when a newborn child squeezes for the first time
with his tiny fist his father's finger, he has him trapped forever.

I have learned that a man has the right to look down on another only
when he has to help the other get to his feet.

From you I have learned so many things, but in truth they won't be
of much use, for when I keep them within this suitcase, unhappily
shall I be dying.

GABRIEL GARCIA MARQUEZ